Sunday, August 21, 2005

running wild

hhhhhh........

i'm so nuts in the head.

Nomor yang anda tuju tidak dapat dihubungi - begitu kata mbak2 di henpon.
It was a simple line, tp entah knp gue jadi mikirnya macem2. Kenapa hpnya gak bisa dihubungi? Padahal baru brp jam yg lalu gue nerima sms dari si empunya nomor tsb. Apa dia kenapa2 di jalan? Apa dia ditodong orang? Apa dia diculik orang? Apa hpnya dicolong orang? Apa ... *hhhhhh* Apa kejadiannya sama kayak di mimpi?

Semalam gue mimpi gak enak banget. Ceritanya begini... I found out ternyata ada ce tinggal di rumah co gue dan dia berusaha ngerebut co gue. Akibatnya co gue jadi cuek dan gak perhatian lagi ma gue. Di mimpi gue ngerasa the whole wedding plan was ruined and was highly likely to get cancelled. I tried to do everything I could. Hugged him tight, held him even closer to me, etc. Tapi terus gue kebangun.

Nah barusan aja gue diserang panic attack. Info terakhir yg gue dapet co gue lagi dinner di resto ma temen2nya. Tapi terus abis itu gak bisa gue hubungin telponnya. Demm... kenapa nih? Otak gue mulai panas dan jantung mulai gedebam-gedebum. Semakin gue pencet2 nomor dia dan coba telp, makin gak keruan aja semuanya. Gue minta Fadhil di jkt buat coba hubungin co gue, mungkin aja jaringan dari oz ke jkt lagi rusak. Gue coba nanya2 no hp temennya yg lagi bareng co gue, tp ga ada yg tau. Otak panas gue mulai menarik garis dari sana sini, dan beranalogi: di mimpi gue merasa kehilangan bgt, apa mungkin di nyatanya mungkin sesuatu terjadi di mana gue akan merasa kehilangan juga?

I started to prepare myself for the worst. Nggak tau mo ngapain sih, tapi I just tried to calm myself. Gue nyalain limewire dan ngedownload bbrp lagu Alvin and The Chipmunks. But still, I failed to calm myself. And just when my head and heart were about to burst, for the very last time gue coba nelp lagi, dan nyambung! hhhhhhhh.... dan gue nerima banyak sms dari dia saying that his battery went flat and now he's home. Hhhh.... what a relieve.

My friend, Mitch, once told me, "You let your imagination run wild, girl".
He was so right. But I just can't help it :(

posted at 12:15 AM - |